Otis

He sat tall, wedged between his two new brothers. His tongue lolled lazily from one side of his generous mouth, his ears perked, and his eyes sparkled and shone with a sense of adventure.
As I looked into my rear view mirror, he answered my gaze with a look that said “Hey, Mom, where are we going?”
We had just met.
Just over a year old, Otis was a live-wire bundle of energy. During his first week in our home, he led us on several long chases through the streets of our subdivision, and the one adjacent to ours, as he exercised his sense of adventure, and our unaccustomed legs. Several times during the chase, he would stop to smell a flower, or investigate an errant piece of trash and move nothing but the quivering tip of his large black nose until our pounding footsteps fell within a few feet of our prey. And he was off again, in a mad dash, that was, for him, a joyful game.
Blessedly, as he became more accustomed to his surroundings and more attached to his family, the game lost it’s lustre, and Otis settled into his new home.
Once acclimated, his manners were impeccable, and one only had to say “Otis, where are you supposed to be?” and he would back away from the kitchen table and just over the piece of floor trim separating the kitchen and den. Once there, he would slowly lower his hips and sit patiently until the meal was finished. His eyes, though, never left the crumb-strewn floor beneath my son’s ill-placed chair.
Otis never met a stranger. He loved everyone and everything, and elicited the same emotion in everyone he met. He was pure love.
Weekends were his favorite, as he waited patiently for the recliner to be filled as the football game started. Seizing the opportunity, he climbed slowly into the space reserved for him, and wedged his large body, long-ways, into the space. Then, lowering his head to his outstretched paws, he slept, peacefully, for hours.
He was a great gardening buddy, loping behind me around the yard as I pruned and planted. He sniffed every flower placed in pot or bed, and took great pleasure from the sweet, earthy smell
of freshly dug soil, while happily sharing in the digging.
It was during these times outside, and in the kitchen, that Otis was most attentive, studying my every move as though in preparation for the time when he would be asked to complete the task on his own. He, and he alone, was allowed to share my galley-style kitchen during cooking, as he stood, alertly, just out of my way, but close enough to scoop up any falling debris after I moved away. He loved Christmas cooking the most, and waited, patiently, for the crackling sound of a bag of chocolate chips being opened. Otis loved chocolate, and particularly chocolate chips. He stood, still as a statue, as I wrestled with the bag, nose twitching, and only moved when I held a single chip between two fingers and invited him to take it.
If anyone loved Eufuala as much as I, it was Otis. He began the trip at the window, watching traffic and taking occasional gulps of exhaust-filled air, but, very soon, he stretched out in the back of the SUV and succumbed to the lullaby sung by spinning wheels.
On arrival, he lumbered slowly out of the back and stretched, languidly, as his nose caught the scent of the water. The race was on to see who would reach the dock first. Once there, we stood in companionable silence as close to the lake as we could get, gratefully allowing her peace and serenity to wash away the road dust. We gave thanks to her when we arrived, and Otis always insisted on one last walk before we left, as if to assure her we would be back.
His grace and dignity served right up to the end, as he faced serious illness with remarkable aplomb. Despite significant weight loss, disturbing tremors, and piles of appetite reducing pills which included embarrassingly productive diuretics, he never lost his spirit or his will to live, outlasting most doctors’ predictions. He fought to eat, he fought to breathe, and through it all continued to spread his special kind of love.
The void he leaves is multi-faceted.
He was the only dog I ever knew who preferred to sleep with his head on the pillow. This came in handy on cold nights spent in a half-empty bed.
He appreciated a captive audience, nosing open the slightly ajar bathroom door, to stand in front of the throne upon which I perched, offering the sweet valley between his eyes for a nuzzle and a kiss.
He valiantly guarded the bathroom door as I bathed, and I prefer to think it was my safety that motivated him, and not the dog treat he knew was waiting in the kitchen.
He ended every night, before settling in on an assortment of pillows spread for his comfort, by coming to the side of the bed and placing his large head quietly next to mine in a request for a final rub and a goodnight kiss.
And, on unsettled nights when sleep wouldn’t come, Otis silently accompanied me in my wanderings of dark hallways. When, at last, I sat, he followed suit, giving me a look that said, “You know, if you need me, I’m right here.”

© Copyright 2007-2008 Stacye Carroll

The Place Where My Heart Lives

It’s a desolate stretch of highway that connects western Georgia with Alabama. The stark white of concrete stands in sharp contast to the large metal boxes posted every few feet, affording stranded motorists a chance to call for help. Undecorated exits veer off endlessly and the occasional fellow traveler is a welcome break in the horizon. The time spent is filled with peaceful anticipation.
Perched on the same corner for over 50 years, the Smoky Pig in Phenix City, Alabama doubles as our “Welcome Center”. The small, concrete block building makes no attempt to hide it’s decay and despite it’s uninviting appearance, the tiny, crumbling parking lot is always filled with cars driven by those enticed by the pork-scented smoke billowing from the back of the building. Inside, the menu is mounted above the heads of family members scheduled to work that day. The choice is easy as long as you realize that each of the 5 or 6 items offered, including the cole slaw, will be coated with barbeque sauce. With a pound of pork and a bottle of sauce secured under each arm, we are ready to resume our journey.
Once out of the city, the roadways are old, narrow, and winding. Rural beauty peeks out from behind the mobile homes and barbeque stands that seem to line the pavement like rebel soldiers. Entrepeneurs offer “boil peanuts”, artistic tin renderings, exotic southern plantlife, and the usual used clothing and household goods. Even the putrid smell emitted by the paper mill is a welcome reminder.
The road widens into a “bullahvaard” as we enter Eufaula. Grand, stately mansions fill carefully landscaped green carpets striped with walkways. As we pass, each whispers her story. Soon the sound of hooves striking cobblestone and the whine of rusty carriage wheels fill my imagination. Silky hoop skirts swish over oriental carpets. A shadowy widow’s walk looms high above the house that holds her and keeps her secrets.
Miles later, as we pass the tiny, white clapboard church, I strain to see the totem pole bearing the names of those who belong here. Pavement gives way to granite studded red clay as we bump and wind our way toward the lake. Wild azaleas dot the landscape in varying shades of pink and purple and water birds dart and swoop.
The house is large and imposing, not really a cabin at all. She is surrounded on either side by an eclectic mix of quaint white cottages and sturdy metal buildings, all patiently waiting for their occupants to return. Dark and cool, the interior is decorated in circa 1970’s with it’s inevitable rusts, avocados, and golds. Cotton throws rest casually on the backs of chairs; a guard against the plastic cushions. The large paneled bar on one end of the room looks out of place until one remembers why we are here. The only rule here is that there are no rules.
The lake calls, glad to see we are back. As I walk the winding path toward the dock, she ripples in anticipation. Creaking, groaning, and swaying across the shore, I reach the platform that will serve as our playground. A deep breath fills me with all that I love about being here; earthy, sweet contentment.
Mornings are best. Cool fog blankets everything in softness. Rythmic water sounds accompany the birds, squirrels, and occasional stray dog laying claim to the lake. It is a beautiful sort of quiet that one not dare disturb. Steaming coffee and flannel provide warmth against the watery air as I observe from my plantation rocker on the screened-in porch. This is my sanctuary. This is where I worship. This is where God lives.
The rising sun spreads her warmth with a swiftness that always surprises me. As she climbs over the horizon, squirrels scatter, birds quiet, flannel is shed, and bedcovers become cloying. Wake-up sounds come from inside the house. The worship service is concluded.
Now is the time that memories are created; canoe rides that begin in fits and starts as the shore sucks voraciously at the bottom of the metal craft, catfish that fight mightily and then cry like newborns when wrested onto the dock, golden brown piles of those fish on platters and learning that the crispy tail is the tastiest morsel, flying high into the air and bouncing higher still with the next jump onto the trampoline, enormous quivering azalea blossoms dappled with dew, and a large, furry stray who smiles as he walks towards you and promises to always be your best friend.
Nights belong to the adults. As dinner concludes, the blender grinds, and children are settled for a welcome rest. Music plays and the fun begins. Rocking and laughing on the porch, we are lit by the reflection of the moon on the lake. Hours pass as we reminisce. Drink flows, as do bodies, in spontaneous dance. Board games are brought out and never finished. As laughs settle into yawns, we wander towards sleep.
On Friday, the ageless owner/hostess of the “Hungry Fisherman” shows us to an antiquated wooden table set with condiments. Year after year, the same faces take our orders and point with pride at the salad bar, complete with bagged salad and grocery store dressings. “All You Can Eat” catfish and shrimp, with a freshness that belies their setting, bring us here. The only change to the decor in the many years we have enjoyed our dinners, is the big screen TV in the corner. Having gone days without that convenience, the canned noise and colorful images it emits are almost welcomed.
As is always the case, we are happy to arrive and happy to leave. As clean-up begins, “real” life intrudes with thoughts of work, and home, and obligations. With the last towel folded, and the last bag loaded, I take one last walk towards my watery heaven. The sun tickles the surface and bounces against my skin. She promises to wait for me. Always.

© Copyright 2007-2008 Stacye Carroll